You are who you are a personality that shines when the darkest of days come. That is your real self that is who you trully are. Either you like it or not thats the cold blooded truth. You have to believe in your abilities. You have to accept who you are if you want to improve. Climb up the social ladder if want to. That is the only thing that matters. Do what you want to do not what society and stereotypical minds force you to. Otherwise you are pressuring yourself and that is something that can literaly kill you. Your life is yours you are the only one who should control it. Your path is yours and only yours nobodys else. Just be yourself and follow your wills. That way you will always be who you trully are and who you want to become. Live a life you will remember especially one that you wanted to live.